I’ve been thinking a lot about my blogging recently.
There’s some people I follow who have thousands of followers and hundreds of likes, and it makes me feel insecure as a blogger.
I’m not a jealous blogger
My better self says I’m not jealous because I know they work hard creating their content, but at my worst times I feel confused and frustrated. Comparison is the thief of joy, but their success reminds me how far there is to go.
I know I’m not writing for a huge audience here, but I want to serve this audience well. I want to make great thoughtful content that people get to see, I don’t want to get in my own way by being doubtful about my blogging.
I want to bridge the gap so many of us feel between between not caring at all and caring way too much about the world. I want to make social justice relevant and fresh again to a whole new set of people.
Do I do my content justice?
But if I’m honest, I know I don’t optimise well. I barely know any SEO tools, and feel proud just for managing to link my account to Tumblr. I’m blown away that I managed to create a matching Facebook page, even though it’s tiny and I know I could do better.
Occasionally I get a mini-glut of views, and those happy accidents keep me going. I write for myself, to figure things out, to learn and grow, but it’s still hugely exciting when more than ten of you see my posts. I’ve been going for almost a solid year of weekly posts now, but without the energy and effort, I’m not improving as fast as I’d like to be.
Time to step-up my confidence
I tried to get serious recently, I started reading about Yoast and got really excited about ticking off all my optimisation lists and getting more confident with blogging. Everyone recommends it, and I was more than ready to start!
But first you have to pay for WordPress to access plug-ins.
I wonder how many successful bloggers are the ones who invest in themselves like that. I’m constantly trying to walk a tightrope of investing my time and investing my money, when in reality it doesn’t feel like I have enough of either.
Escape the confidence trap
I ‘d love to have the confidence to reach out to other writers and other sites, to grow my network, but sometimes it can feel like a catch-22. The first step needs to be believing in yourself, but how do you do that without evidence? You have to take a leap of faith.
Thanks for reading, I hope to be taking some leaps of faith soon and making a little more writing progress.
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