On Mondays, We …. Feel Inadequate About Our Shortcomings

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On Mondays, we feel inadequate. We feel like a failure because we're turning up at our "stop-gap" job yet again. We feel like a failure because we didn't get everything done we wanted to. We feel like life is passing us by whilst we endlessly fail to achieve the changes we dream of.

You are worthy of existing (No post this week)

This weekend I had no energy, and right now I need my energy for finding work. Normally I'd write something now to make up for the gap. But sometimes you've got to accept the limits on your spoons, and make time for self care, in whatever form you need at that moment. We're worthy even … Continue reading You are worthy of existing (No post this week)

Coming soon: Fear, Intersectionality or Anti-Natalism (No post this week)

  Next week’s post is about any of these 3 topics: Anti-Natalists: The kindest most selfish people you’ll ever meet. Intersectionality: Who’s really at the bottom of the pile, and why does it matter? Fury and Fear: The sad reason why twitter trolls thrive on your hate. These title’s aren’t confirmed, but keep an eye … Continue reading Coming soon: Fear, Intersectionality or Anti-Natalism (No post this week)

This Crisis Is Part of All of Us

This recent health crisis the world is facing feels surreal and inevitable at the same time. We're a closely connected species with masses of technology, but ultimately we're still fragile and biological machines. I've written before that whilst numbers are infinite, humans are not, and that's the limit of our financial economy. We know the … Continue reading This Crisis Is Part of All of Us

Why It’s Okay To Tune Out Bad News (plus Name Change)

Happy Friday to you! I've updated my page, and I hope it looks prettier. More aesthetic. More calming. I've been feeling increasingly panicked this week. Most of the time, I get anxious then get over it, but this week, it's felt like the whole world was going into catastrophising meltdown. It's meant to just be … Continue reading Why It’s Okay To Tune Out Bad News (plus Name Change)

Why Capitalism Will Make You Lonely

Lately, I'm reading a book about the language and importance of friendships, by Deborah Tannen, a linguistics professor. As she writes in her book, "everything else is just stuff". Despite this, sometimes it seems impossible to balance with work and everything else, especially if (like me) you have solitary hobbies and faraway friends. It's almost … Continue reading Why Capitalism Will Make You Lonely

My Life Spent Coming Back from The “Pit of the Void”

  Finding the Pit When I was young, I fell into the "Pit of the Void". I was too scared to tell anyone, I didn't know what was happening. I'd always been a sensitive curious child. Was "meditation" was explained to me or did I come up with the idea by myself? I can't remember. … Continue reading My Life Spent Coming Back from The “Pit of the Void”

Poem & Book Review: “When Breath Becomes Air”

Living in the Moment Take the unexpected track, it's unexpected even to you. Do something different, do something new. Maybe it works out, maybe it won't. it's your choice if you try though, and yours if you don't. Maybe you shouldn't, maybe you should. Try every day though, know that you could. Enjoy what comes … Continue reading Poem & Book Review: “When Breath Becomes Air”

Rebalancing: Living whilst Working

This week, I took a self-care day off. Working 5 days is the norm, but it doesn't mean it's healthy. Right now, work tires me out more than when I worked 12 hour shifts 3 times a week. Technically, I get more time to sleep and recover, but mentally it's a challenge to stay focused … Continue reading Rebalancing: Living whilst Working